开心。难过

开心，毋需理由。难过，不需借口。

O's note

This was written by my friend back in the secondary school days. She had folded 7 stars to wish me luck in all 7 subjects took by me for the 'O's, and had written a short note in it all. She had specifically told me not to open them up to read, and I have done so faithfully for the past 7 years (1year per star). Thanks O, you have been a really good friend in the past, even if we are no longer close now. I wish you the best in everything you are doing and please do know that I am here for you, as I was in the past.

Purple Star: Dear Julian, I really thank God for letting me know you. You are the sweetest, the kindest and the nicest guy ever. I know

Blue star: you do that to every girl. So to you, I am just another girl. But to me you are every special. I appreciate everything you

Gold Star: did and said to me. Your encouragements, support, hugs, "kisses", and even morning, noon, and night greetings

Silver Star: will be imprinted in my heart. I will always remember you!! So i wish you happy always! (hehe.. I know you will).

Pink star: And I really hope you will be able to find your Ms Right! She is somewhere in this part of the world. You must

Green Star: believe this ok?! You don't ever try committing suicide!!!Last but not least, you must get good results for your 'O' levels

Red Star: k? You must strive not to fail! Don't give up!! I will always support you. Remember that ok!? =) <3 Olivia 10.07.2004 (10.51PM)

When life was simple

Wasn't it too long ago, when as a baby (pre-schooler), life was easy and pure, where happiness revolved around eating and being at home with those you love?

When your favourite shows on TV got your undivided attention? When strangers were just friends unknown yet? When you could blabber about anything to anyone?

Wasn't it too long ago, when as a kid, life was simple and fun, where happiness revolved around hide-and-seek and running in the field?

When people annoyed you and the best retort you could come up with was "don't friend you"? When you confided in friends without any worries?

Wasn't it too long ago, when as a teenager, life was exciting and hectic, where being with close friends meant everything in the world to you? Skipping lessons, missing tuition, just because hanging out meant more to you than before?

What has life became? Doubts of others, insecurity of self, unhappiness with partners, all hidden in one self. Where happiness has slowly disintegrated to revolve primarily about money. Where you thought twice about sharing your worries.

Life is complex. Life is hard.

Can I go back to the times when I was still a kid, and happiness was candy defined?

I miss me. The old me.

Leaving

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knowing death is approaching a relative does not make it better and easier to cope with.

"a few more months, at most."

it's saddening to hear that.

oh death.